Yawn Yawn!!

I so want to write and all of a sudden its all gone. I do not have anything to say. The first post of the year and nothing eventful to boast about. Yeah here and there I have done my thing but that's all there is to it. These days men come and go and they leave no impression at all - well literally as well sometimes. Wicked! And there are times I wonder why do I even bother! I shouldn't. Sometimes I think that may be deep down there is a person who really wants it all - the whole hog and yet so scared to admit it to himself. Well whatever the consequences, the feeling still remains. Though hidden and sometimes often made public either on the blog or told to friends.

There is so much that needs my attention all of a sudden and yet I am unable to give it. My new house requires it and god knows that I haven't done much to its restoration or taken any interest in the process. I am just plain lethargic these days and living it up. Reading takes up most of my time cos there is nothing to do at work. Seriously. I just sit on my seat and do nothing. Stare into the Excel and Word Documents aimlessly just trying to get some direction from what I seem to be doing. Work is alomost like a place that I do not want to be at but I am only cos it pays my home loan.

Is it boredom that is getting to me before anything else? Would twiddling my thumbs be such a great idea after all?